The words of a song “Bohemian Rhapsody” from Queen, a rock band from the 70’s, in a weird way capsulizes a struggle I had recently. The song begins with:
Is this real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a land slide.
No escape from reality.
The month of May was renamed by a friend of mine as Mayhem and despite my best efforts to eliminate as much as possible, the month of May felt like it was just that, chaos, disorder and out of control.
Spring concerts, plays, and projects. Mother’s day and Graduation festivities…preschool, kindergarten, 5th grade, 8th grade, high school and college! Sprinkle in a visit from Grandma, a wedding, end of the year school parties and Memorial Day weekend to bring the pandemonium to a peak.
If you have kids, grandkids, nieces & nephews or involved with school aged kids, I am certain you can relate to the craziness of May along with the lyrics to the song and jump on the landslide, which for me felt more like a mudslide. In the midst of all the craziness of May an annoying question kept taunting me. Queen’s song is rather lengthy, complex and seems to have random concepts. The raphsody lands on a conclusion that:
Nothing really matters
Anyone can see
Nothing really matters – Nothing really matters to me….
Well things do matter to me, but does what I do really matter? That was the annoying question. In my real life of over loaded coming and going and doing, I felt like I couldn’t get to what I really wanted to come and go and do, but yet the coming and going and doing I was coming and going and doing seemed to be important. Thus the question: Does anything I do really matter for you, God?
This question is a heavy one and it was weighing me down. I finally got a little longer time with God sometime around the first of June to wrestle with Him about this question. As I spilled my guts, whined a good bit and made sure I had completely filled God in on my frustration, I tried to be quiet to listen. After my rampage and in the quietness, I was convicted that I was asking the wrong question.
Just a slight degree off, like that of a compass pointed toward the North Pole can send you off in the completely wrong direction so God began to reveal to me that this is what I had done with the annoying question. The slight degree difference was actually a quite large one in destination estimation. GOD was at the end of my question and the emphasis was on what I did!
My question of “does what I do really matter?” actually included God in my thinking. It did consider the question of does what I do matter in God’s purposes for me – type of thing. However, it was still slightly the wrong question. The better question is more direct. It focuses on God and takes me out of the equation. The question is:
What really matters to You, God?
Well, I haven’t blogged sense Mother’s Day not so much as a result of a busy schedule, but because I am taking seriously this question and applying it to everything I do – including blogging.
I don’t have it all figured out yet, but my compass has been reset on the right question. So, does anything really matter? YES! The question you ask matters!
What matters to God needs to matter to me changing those lyrics a bit…
Does what I do really matter?
Is the wrong question, you see
Everything and anything really matters…If it matters to God, it matters to me!
Next question: What does really matters to God? That is what I have actually been processing over the past several weeks. I would like to invite you to join me in asking the same question. What really matters to God? Next step is, as we discover the answer bit by bit, we get about doing it. Like for me it has been playing with my kids now that they are out of school, writing a new bible study and finally writing this blog. In a few days it will be going on a mission trip to Honduras.
Wonder what else it will be for me? Wonder what it will be for you…
What really matters to God?
“He has told you, O mortal, what is good; and what does the LORD require of you, but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?” Micah 6:8